Today~

Today I am completely and utterly, mentally and physically exhausted.

I, quite literally, am having a hard time making my fingers move enough

to type these sentences.

And, yet, I want to type.

I want to get it all out.

Like so many of you who blog, my blog is my therapy.

Because I love design and DIY-ing as much as I do,

posting about those things is usually therapy enough for me.

But not after this last week.

And so today I just want to be me.

The burnt-out, exhausted, so-stressed-I-can't-see-straight (I mean literally...I had to pull out my glasses for the first time in months), gained-5-pounds-from-stress-eating me.

The girl who is sitting on the floor to type this blog post because the home office redesign she started last week was abruptly interrupted by tragedy.

Tragedy that brought everything to a screeching halt

and made me realize that I take things too much for granted.

Things like a husband who can help me push furniture around.

And a dad who is always there when I need him.

Life this week was just too real.

And there is so much more to the story than even the parts I've told you.

But it doesn't need to be shared here.

I just need to know that even though most of us have never met, we are there to love one another. To lift one another up. To support one another in difficult times.

Because people are basically good.

And you, my readers, my friends, are wonderful.

Thank you for letting me vent.

Thank you for coming here and sharing your words of encouragement.

I know that this week full of trials will pass.

My husband's wounds will heal.

My father will walk again.

The two men I love so much will be themselves once more.

But I will never be the same.

Because this adversity has changed me inside.

I am exhausted.

But I am stronger too.

And even though I still have a long road ahead of me in dealing with these things,

I know I can do it. I know I can keep climbing.

I just hope you'll all bear with me, when I need to let it out.

When I need to share my all-too-real challenges,
And gain strength from those around me.

And I promise to pay it forward.

But for now, I'm just plain exhausted.

(For those who haven't heard what happened, you can click here and here.)